This is the first song I have ever written, I wrote it a while ago, but still like it. The lyrics are based off of two of my characters from my Story "Black Four Clover". The song isn't meant to rhyme, that's why it doesn't. I did my best to convey imagery and emotion in the lyrics. It is likely that I will re-write them sometime, I noticed that some verses flow smoothly with each other whereas others do not. But just think of this as a rough draft, opinions, and critics are very welcomed.
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Shape of Happiness
Lyrics written by: Ruibird
Aching in despair
I was left behind in a world too far away
A empty void surrounded by red
I couldn't see anything
I'm listening for words caught on the wind
"Will you come back to me?"
A wish made, all alone
If I were stronger maybe then
it wouldn't hurt so much to see you go
You went farther away than I could ever reach
My offered hand grows cold
I couldn't stop you
Only a trembling voice to your back
That's all I was
If I were stronger maybe then
it wouldn't hurt so much to know that you can't hear me anymore
Only a tiny voice in the pandemonium
That's all I was
I had been foolish
turning away when you looked at me
Afraid of feeling
My shape of happiness
That's what you were
My shape of happiness
If I were stronger maybe then
these heavy tears would stop flowing
but the wavy world in front of me continues shaking
If I were stronger maybe then I could tell you
the words I meant to say
And greet you with the smile I never showed
Taking off the mask I wore
If I had been stronger maybe then,
would you have loved me too?
I still listen to the wind
waiting for non-existent words
to tell me that I'm alive
In your heart can you hear me
calling out?
The faceless voices ringing in my ears
don't bring me any peace tonight
Could you see
what I had been trying to show?
behind my vengeful ways
an end to ephemeral feelings
If I had been stronger maybe then,
would you have loved me too?
Aching in despair
left behind in a world too far away
Even wings won't reach you now
I had been too afraid of feeling
All this time I didn't see you smiling at me
My shape of happiness
That's what you were
If I had been stronger maybe then I would have known
that you loved me too
My shape of happiness
