Suicidal

[Jessica Adnee]

I was just wondering if anyone had any insight as to why people do this? This is one of the few many topics where I'm just clueless.

[XeroHedgehog]

Oh god...I really don't know what to say. I've had a person close to me die before, but she didn't take her own life, so I can't really sympathize...

I think the reason people commit suicide is because they have given up on fulfilling their life-long goals because they are always placed in situations where the goals they want to meet are always blocked by a dead end. They are so desperate to achieve something that they soon realize they can't, and can no longer accept it. They take their own lives because they truly believe it won't be better down the road.

If a person is so depressed that they have no-one to turn to, not even the friends and loved ones they already have, then that person could have been helped sooner...but the help was too far from reach. It's the denial of their own life success and the constant lack of sufficient help or the constant burden of depression that drives them to take their life.

I can't possibly put a finger on how depressing this kind of topic can be to talk about. I did have a friend who tried to commit suicide and wound up in a mental hospital, but I have never been able to truly realize how saddening this can be. I'm sorry if nothing I said helped, or if it sounded out of context, it's just that I've never actually had any issues with this before, so I don't know how else I can help you out.

[Charil]

Such a depressing thread...

A while ago, I wanted to kill myself. It's not that I was giving up my goals, or that I didn't have anything to live for. I did. And I still do. I wanted to die because I felt that I had screwed up not only the perception of myself, but myself in general. I put on an act to "fit in" so to speak with other girls my age, to be like they were because that's how I thought I was supposed to be, and when I finally came to terms with how I really am, I hated myself for it. Everybody saw and knew me as an angsty, pissed-off, gothy, feminist bitch and I hated myself for giving them that impression. I couldn't be closer to the opposite. I wanted to kill myself because I wanted to start over if reincarnation. Or even to just not be around anymore. That's my story. I know everyone's is different, but that's just one example of "why" someone would want to kill themselves.

And I'm really sorry about your friend I hope you feel better soon

[Chris Nagy]

Suicide is simply the response to being facing with more pain than you have the resources to cope with. When faced with overwhelming emotional pain (and sometimes physical pain) the option of simply ceasing to be looks like the best choice.

[hideko_dahlia]

My heartfelt condolences. *sends love and warmth*

Almost exactly a year ago a good friend of mine commited suicide. He had really thought it all out. He was a strong believer in the Christian faith, and said that he thought that it was better to be with God. It was a big surprise, because whenever I saw him... he was always so happy and full of life. My dad had been his confirmation mentor, so we were one of the first ones to find out about it after...

I always have to think for a long time to get anywhere on the topic of suicide. People do it for different reasons. Some people think that there's a better place for them in the afterlife; some people just hate the world and themselves; some people just don't know how to handle things... But hardly ever do they think of how sad the people they leave behind will be. It's a selfish escape from pain. It hurts a lot. The living have to carry on the burdens of the dead, because they no longer can carry them...

Okay, now I'm making myself really sad. I need to stop. ><;

[Chris Nagy]

But hardly ever do they think of how sad the people they leave behind will be.

Quoted for truth.

The few times I have seriously contemplated suicide, the one thing that always ripped me back from the edge of the abyss was imagining my own funeral. My parents, my brother, my aunt (who, being unable to have children of her own, raised my brother and I as a third parent; ) it made me sad enough to cry. If you can truthfully imagine how one person that loves you will feel and act at your own funeral, I'd imagine that is as good as any hotline.

[S.A.]

Er.. That seems a bit insensitive.

[greendaygoddess]

Yeah..my condolences to you and your freind's family and loved ones. And that does seem kinda insensitive

[Matt Alan]

I'm honestly not trying to be mean, or anything, but this is really more of an LJ subject, Pixie.

I'm sorry for your loss.

[Cosmo]

I can only speak from a personal view but you look on suicide when you are depressed from a totally different perspective, a means of escape of things that torment you on a daily/regular basis, buffered by one brief moment of uncomfortableness/fear then your free. You justify it in so many ways while in that state of mind that it almost seems silly not to do it, and when it comes to other people you know, and thier feelings you convince yourself that they would be better off without your prescence in thier life, to the point where you think most might even be happy that you did it.

I am sorry for your loss, losing a loved one is never easy, i can only imagine losing a loved one to suicide is even harder, the questions of why may never be known, nor the question of wether you could have done something to help. The thing is in such situations im sure that if he felt someone else could have helped he would have tried to ask for that help.
It seems a bunch of hollow words, but whatever was causing such pain as to force that final choice he is free of now, and hopefully in a better place.


P.S. Sorry started to write another essay on my whole life story, i think im Bipolar, Manic depression seems to run in my family, Mother and Grandmother both have been medically declared manic depressives. Unfortuantly getting an apointment with a Psychatrist seems next to impossible at the minute as all waiting lists are apparently full so i cant even get on one (hence the i think).
After a low period when i hit a high i often think back to my suicidal thoughts and cannot believe how i could have even comprehended such a thing. Luckily for me i have a wonderful wife and 3 wonderful children and its always the thought of them that keeps me going.