I'm turning 23 after this summer and I am NOT fucking excited at all!!!! Why,you ask!??!!? It's because I know some people here in the VAA who are around my age who's doing what they want in terms of their respective future careers and I feel like I'm losing precious time here.
I don't want to turn 23 this summer unless I have a good plan on my own future and have a good chance of getting into my preferred field at the age of 25-27. Basically,I want to accomplish my life dream before 30 and make my name known.
I've been going back and forth between on being a screen writer onto a director working on anime/videogame adaptation films that don't suck ass to a video game designer of my own video game project I had put up in here in the VAA a year back. I guess most of my anguish is mixed with anxiety,impatience,jealousy and a feeling of inadequacy.
Times like this,I wish I could see the future in a Xenoblade-esque fashion and adjust my actions accordingly. But being this is real life and this being nowhere near as awesome,I have to make due with what I got. I guess I'm unsure of myself and would rush into my career to feel up to speed.
It may come across as immature or selfish to some but I'm sure a lot of people felt this way when their age has finally caught up to them. Add that with people having basically a head-start,it adds to the tension.
Most of all,I needed to vent this out before I go insane.