Being a person who some would call a real pain,others a guy who needs to chill and most as possibly one of the jaded and conflicted people in this world;I have been to the darkest depths of sheer cynicism,rage,and entitlement that has made me a sort of pariah in most social circles. This is not helped by the "holier than thou" attitude I have picked up due to finding that a lot of things in life don't excite me and give me a sense of satisfaction like they used to. We all have dreams and expectations in life. Some are big as the Himalayas,or small as molecules that make up this world we live in called life. But either way,when those expectations get compromised in one way or another,everyone seems to have their own way of dealing with it. But the same reaction to such an event not quite meeting the horizon is disappointment. Now in life,we tend to fail quite a bit before we get to our destination and it is inevitable that we do so to grow. Being somewhat of an obsessive perfectionist,this is one truth that I have yet to fully comprehend even now as I'm writing this. We all have struggles in life and how each and every one deals with them as individuals are just as varied. The thing with haters,the kind of mindset focuses on being disappointed that something didn't go as planned and that sense of entitlement as a result of human hubris can lead to very ugly results. An example is that I really hate Hollywood and its many morally bankrupt practices to make a movie.
My Life as a Hater:
A Semi-autobiographical Story About a Hater and How One "Lives"
This is an example looking into said practices and you can see where I'm coming from. But the thing is,where most people are able to let go and move on with their lives,haters seem to forget that step and instead dwell on what is most likely something that they cannot change. It is after all,easier to complain and bitch about something rather than to actually put one's heart into actually doing something about it. As a member of a loud minority of individuals who have lived in such away,I will be the even fewer to go out and say this,"as a result of choosing the easy way out of everything,I have lived a life of shame and pettiness that not only gets ignored by many people but also tend to alienate others as a result". There are times where people would tell me to chill and relax and I asked why. I think the real answer to that is,I'm much too hooked into my narrow way of thinking like a drug addict has for his/her substance. I either don't want to give it much for whatever twisted euphoria and excuse it brings me and would much rather continue such a shameful life-style.
This world is hardly what many would call fair and some like myself would see that as an excuse for the things one would say under this narrow-minded influence,but not only it hardly changes anything(usually for the better as most would intend)it only blinds a person further and makes them dig the hole even deeper. Also,another reason why haters would go above and beyond to defend this viewpoint is the fact that they hardly understand half the things going on when it comes to the bigger picture. There are bigger things in life than what kind of comic book movie is going to be torn to shreds and what other stupid quote that comes from famous people. Being a person raised in a first-world country,I was blinded from bigger problems such as a lower standard of living to other people in the world and people dying of terminal illness. Selfishness and entitlement comes from one feeling that they should have something just cause and it comes from,in turn,taking one's life for granted. I guess you could say,if a person from Africa would look at my life and see that I'm complaining about it despite it being much better than I thought,all sorts of anger and frustration would come from the person looking at a life the spectator has seen. And the frustration is justifiably so as what am I really complaining about and does it make sense? Of course,the lapse in logic is not uncharacteristic of humanity but there is a dualistic nature for everything stupid we do as people,there are things that we are capable of that can be seen as incredible if not divine. Countless times have people chosen the easy road than to fully realize their potential and in cases such as my own,this frustration of not being able to fulfill things in life have clouded my said judgment and have influenced on where in my life have I allocated all my resources to. Let's just say that I haven't done a good job at said management.
But the one thing that is done when haters would find something to complain about is also but not always a need to hide from one's own self-loathing. Same can be said the other way as these negative actions and viewpoints can create more fuel to feed on one's self-loathing and before you know it,you find this very routine and it gets harder and harder to escape.