Productions from Snowfender
byon 06-15-2009 at 12:09 AM (1046 Views)
i'm semi-unsure if this post is allowed. but i've officially decided that i want to somehow, some way, some day, go professional.
i want to quit so badly sometimes because i just feel like i'm not up to it, that i'll never be haushinka or cristina or mippa or batgirl or hato or littlestar or (the list goes on and on and on). i feel like my voice is just not up to it and my personality sucks too much to even be someone to be kept in touch with... but when i try to put my mic away for good, i can never do it.
i want to succeed. i've never been good at anything at my life. i've been "okay" at things, but never been great. this is one of my biggest dreams. i really, really want to do this. my parents don't believe in me, my brother thinks it's a silly hobby, and to the VAA i'm a sub-par actress/singer, a little above horrible at best, who hangs around and is annoying and self-pitying. but i want to make it.
i know it's hard and maybe it'll take me until i'm 50 to finally get in a commercial or something, but i'll wait. i'm going to begin saving up my job money specifically set aside so that i can pay for all of these things.
i'm sorry if i wasted your time. it just soothes me that this is out there, for people to see. so i can't back down from it now, because i said it. you can go back to your life now