In My Own Mind

[Watercolor]

I wrote this 6 years ago...found it while cleaning....wanted to share it with you
It's the first poem i wrote that didn't rhyme. Enjoy.

In My Own Mind

I find that my mind races at different thoughts
They crash and collide in the black hole that is my memory
I throw myself on the mercy of what they call reality
I hate the world in which I live
With confusion, madness, and everything doctors like to analyze
They think they know what it is like in my head.
The fact is that I like being free as I can be
Even if it is in my own mind

I like to write gibberish that only I understand
I like to mingle words with thought and thoughts with art
Forever I live in the paradox of that is the edge of sanity
I love the confusion of fun, and the danger of being spontaneous
To scream out my rages and passions for all who care to listen
I love to be free even if it is in my own mind

I like to laugh as the air chills my skin
To jump around when I feel happy and spin until I fall
The joys of not knowing or even caring what others think
People around me wish they had this freedom
Even if it is in my own mind

You can only feel this feeling once in your life and that is when you are a child
You are a young flower who is innocent to the knowledge of hate
I hate to be forced to mature
I’m sure that everyone wishes they could play in the sun as I do
To play and feel free, even if it is in my own mind

Soon I must return to the cage of reality
I will not laugh at what I find funny
I will not dance with joy when I am happy
I will not say word when I’m upset
I will not show the world I have feelings
But when I am alone I will enjoy my freedom
Even if it is in my own mind.

[Dagita]

Thats cool, do you still write?

[Watercolor]

Thats cool, do you still write?

Yes I do. You may see several of my poems/songs/stories floating around.

[Tali]

So brilliant and I love the words used. I particularly like the second verse. Cool^^

[La Sailor Luna]

I like your peom, you are very talented. They are very good. :razz: :smile:

[Cefaclor]

I find myself liking it very much, as well.
I really liked "I throw myself on the mercy of what they call reality". I've always kinda been freaked out by memory myself. I mean.. who we are, what are childhood was like, my homework all comes from "my" memory. My memory is my reality. Thats friggin AAAAA! Know what I mean?

I dunno if you really mean this line "I like to laugh as the air chills my skin", but maaan do I love chilly days. Somehow, when the sky looks like an expanse of vanilla and it just rained or its morning and its chilly, I get extremely happy. I dunno why. Its like you wanna jump around and go insane for no reason XD

I really like this poem. Its sad though, how you say that these feelings and expression of utter joy fade away as we grow. I find that university is doing that to me right now XD... so much stress, you hardly have time to smile XD. When I walked in to school on that first day and I saw the long faces and spaced out looks, I thought "man this place is like zombie-mania, wtf?!".. but now I understand XD

[TESM]

ah, the cage of reality, the freedom so seldom hand, and even enjoyed less. very nice free verse that flows quite well. Escape from the analysis of the 'higher ups'? preposterous!

How unfortunate we should live where our freedom is caged and we're told we're better for it. Very neat imagry(sp).

i like it.

[Watercolor]

Wow, thanks for the feed back guys.

I wrote this poem my last semester in trade school. I was reflecting back, and just writing what I thought.
These words were truly what it can be like inside my mind.